Posted in Education, music, piano

F. Chopin, Nocturne cis moll

As I was practicing I realised that the KEY is to play the piece the way that I want and NOT as I think it should be played.

I have now the knowledge and the experience (BUT the music as well guides me..) to understand the style and the character of a piece.

However, I don’t think it is a problem to explore your musicality and expand your own creativity while playing something, even if it leads you to a very different path from what was originally intended or what is widely known and accepted about this piece. (Through recordings and such).

If nothing else, you will feel free, you will relax as there will be no expectation and you might actually discover something new about yourself as a musician, pianist, even as a human being. 🙂

– So, that’s what I did and will continue doing today.

Later, I will take small phrases or bars or segments of the piece to improve it technically, BUT not the whole piece, as I don’t want to spoil it by over thinking or over trying.

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To-Do? Done!

Done? Nothing’s done… Or at least this is how I feel daily whether I do or not do what I “feel” is enough for that day!! I sound so coocoo!!

Anyway.. I will go with my 5 To-Do things List:

  1. Play the piano for a minimum of 2 hours
  2. Exercise for 30-45 mins to feel more energised
  3. Spend 30 mins meditating
  4. Go for a walk (meaning spend sometime outside of the house..)
  5. HUGS!!!

Maybe I will change it tomorrowwwww… 😉

Posted in life

How it feels to be unemployed…

This is the “dark ages” financially and professionally for me… I have had to deal with unemployment in the past, but for 1-2 months only and somehow I always seemed to be working on something else on the side or have a project of some sort..

Now I am feel quite stuck..the only light seems to be my writing and posting my thoughts on my blog these days…

I feel low right now…it is 20:59 on Thursday the 22nd of September..

Sometimes I lose hope…sometimes I feel helpless..and after so many years of working hard towards achieving my goals..and then working and working for hours non-stop with no recognition or appreciation and not getting anywhere or leaving jobs that were not for me, I feel tired and begin to wonder why I am always dreaming of something better but do not know how to achieve it outside of the reality that surrounds me..

Maybe I am not really doing something that will change my current state…maybe I am still doing the same thing over and over and that’s why I keep getting the same results.

(to be continued…)

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Why do we feel alone when we are not?


Why do we “have” to live a life that seems so complicated? It is not complicated! To me it seems I am living a relatively straightforward life, where I say what I want..I express my emotions…but this is not reciprocated..or even understood sometimes.. (and BTW, of course…sometimes I lose my words or what I want to say and what I do say comes out as complete and utter nonsense..especially when I am afraid and I, like everybody else on this planet say half a truth or try to find a “diplomatic” way of expressing my idea…Nobody’s perfect :P)

Why is everybody so afraid of expressing themselves though?

Sometimes I feel that school has messed us up so much because as soon as we said the “wrong” thing everybody including the teacher would make fun of us and OUR WAY OF THINKING!

If only when we said something we actually meant it, but most importantly…if only everybody said what they really wanted, felt, thought…Would that really be so horrible?

The way we have learned to live now might be conflicting to all that I have wished…but…Why can’t we unlearn or change these “BAD-not so good-not so positive” habits, which are: lying, being afraid of speaking up, saying how we feel about a certain situation (positive or negative)..

As a result, sooner or later I think that we will all learn how to trust one another because we would know we are not talking bullshit.. and OH MY GOD! I just had a stupendous idea…

WHAT IF? We lived in a world..where everybody spoke the truth… or if there was a plant (I will look into this…there probably is one) that when you consume it…you can only be honest and sincere and open and exactly who you are…

I don’t believe people are that horrible…and certainly we can teach each other and learn from one another how to be better…once we reinstate trust.. and earn it…and once we start feeling comfortable with the idea….IT COULD WORK!!